This little nugget is officially half a year old!
I don't know how this happened, really, and I have a flurry of emotions going on right now about it.
I'm excited because she is learning how to do more things like grab her toes and chew her toes and roll over both ways and scoot herself backwards and raise herself up on her hands and knees when she's real motivated. I love her cuteness right now- all chunky and solid and full of big cheeks and smiles.
As hard as having a new baby along with a toddler has been, I feel a sadness knowing that she is quickly and permanently becoming older. And I just can't do much about that. I'll be honest, I've found myself wishing multiple times (sometimes multiple times a day...and night) that I could just speed through this baby phase to when she's sleeping through the night and walking and able to play along with her sister. I've thought that sounds like a much easier, less stressful place to be. But then I will never get this sweet baby time with her back. I will only get to squeeze her soft baby self for a little more than a handful of months. And when I think about that, I get sad. I also feel frustrated, at times, that I have to learn how to enjoy the moments worth cherishing despite the stress and fatigue.
And so it's just a gentle reminder for me to push beyond the frustration and fatigue of this current season and savor the sweetness that comes with having a little baby. It's a gently reminder for me to be more present here. There truly is so much to enjoy right now.
We've been trying different foods. So far she's tried banana, sweet potato, avocado, mango, pineapple, apple, puffs and Mum Mums...and green beans, but she actually gagged those up. They were the baby puree kind that comes in a pouch, and I don't blame her at all because I tried them, and they were pretty disgusting. I think she'll like freshly cooked green beans much better. But she might just have to wait until she has more teeth because I am not motivated at all to be pureeing any green beans any time soon. I'm just not about that homemade baby food life right now, mainly because I tried with Evie and she mostly refused to eat everything I made her. I don't know, maybe I'll give it another shot....one of these days....
Anyway, she's also been discovering new ways for her mouth to make sounds. Currently, her favorite thing to do is purse her lips and blow real hard, which causes her to make lots of toot-like noises and also causes lots of spit to fly out of her mouth, so it's best to not have your face super close to her when she does this.
She has two teeth coming in on her bottom gum! Woo hoo for that! But...also got her first fever, so not woo hoo for that. I think the fever was due partly to her teeth coming in and also from her six month shots.
One thing that is flattering but exasperating is that she just really wants to be held. All the time. She's only content for so long when I put her down on the floor or in her bouncy seat or in her swing before she's fussing and getting herself all flustered. As soon as I pick her up, though, she's usually just fine. I have a baby wrap, and though it has come in handy for certain situations, she doesn't normally enjoy being in it. And this is so sad because I really want to use it! And her sister absolutely loved being in the wrap.
They like to keep you on your toes, these babies....
I think I've highlighted most of what is new this month, but I could be missing some things. When I get a chance to write, usually I'm so tired and lately it has been harder and harder to focus my thoughts into well thought out sentences and paragraphs, so if this post seems a little bit all over the place (if a few of my recent posts seem all over the place), I'm sorry. I hope I get my groove back soon, but until then, I am working on embracing grace.
Nora Joy, my sweet baby girl, we love you so! And, as always, we look forward so much to watching you grow every month!