Holidays just seem to have a way of springing up on me these days.
I didn't intend for that to be a pun. I promise.
But seriously, when did it even become anywhere near the time to celebrate Easter?? It's a week away and, truth be told, I haven't thought about it too much. If I'm being brutally honest, I've thought more about what Evie will wear on Easter than I have thought about why I celebrate it.
Perhaps that's because sometimes I have trouble finding God in the ordinary, which is where I dwell right now. Somehow He gets cast to the very edge of my world and paying the bills, comforting a cranky baby and trying to get the refrigerator fixed become the center.
I allow so much to get in the way and fog up my perspective. Things that should be hanging around in the background become my focus. And when this happens, I snap at my husband, use my time unwisely and become easily overwhelmed.
But when my focus is where it should be- on the truth that I have been given grace, that Jesus performed the most shocking and beautiful act of love our world could ever know so that I might be gathered back into a restored relationship with the God who made me, well, life gets much richer.
I am ashamed at how easily I forget the countless ways He gives me grace every day. I am ashamed at how easily I forget how much I need it. He provides me with courage, patience and peace when I just don't have any. He hears my prayers, even when I feel like I'm talking to myself, and answers them in ways unexpected, opening doors I never thought were there. He gives good gifts in the form of a sweet new friendship or a hearty burst of baby giggles or a refreshingly windy day.
Someone asked me a couple weeks ago to write a psalm, my own poem of sorts, about who God is to me and what He is doing for me right now in this present season of my life. So in honor of Easter and to refocus my heart on why I have so much reason to celebrate, I'd like to share my psalm.
The Lord is my clarity, for He clears away the fog in my sight and helps me to see anew.
When I gaze at myself with doubt and disappointment, He shows me that I am enough because Jesus has made me enough.
When I search for a place to belong, He reminds me that I am only ever truly at home when I am found in Him.
He shines His perfect peace through my dark nights of anxiety and fear, illuminating my hope.
Surely understanding and wisdom will grow in me all the days of my life as I look to the Lord as my true vision.
May I always remember this amazing grace we celebrate and the One who gives it.
*This grace God gives is meant for all of us. Jesus can meet you right where you are. He can renew your soul and help you live the life you were made for. He's the only one with the power to do this. You don't need to change first. You don't need to have your act together. All you need to do is trust that through His death on the cross, He has forgiven you for all the ways you have separated yourself from God. He will fill the hole you have been trying to fill on your own with so many other things. He will give you life that is abundant and everlasting. All you have to do is ask Him!