My dear Evangeline,
It seems like so much and not enough time has passed all at once when I think about these 12 months of life you've lived so far. These 12 months that have packed themselves into a year that has been so full.
So full of stress and fear in the beginning when you cried constantly, and we didn't know why. So full of relief two months later when we finally figured it out, and you became a happy baby. So full of joy for all of the firsts: the first time you smiled or laughed or grabbed something or crawled or babbled. So full of pride at how much you've learned.
I've been full of worry whenever I think might be doing something wrong. Though I've come along way, and I think I'm better about giving myself grace now.
We have been full of thankfulness for family and friends that have been right there with us through everything. We have been so full of hope and curiosity over who you'll be and what you'll like and what you'll say and think. We have been full of prayer because we need it so desperately. And we have been so, so full of awe that you are ours, that we get to be your parents.
Sometimes I have moments where I can't believe your actually here, like I'm still expecting to look down and see a pregnant belly. I'm weird sometimes, I know. But we are so happy that you are a part of our lives now. So. Happy. Being your parents has been life changing in hard ways (sometimes shockingly hard) and in wonderful ways (more wonderful than I could have imagined). But I can't imagine life without you. You're like the perfectly fitting puzzle piece we never knew was missing.
We love you so very much.
And you only turn one once.
This is kind of a big deal. So we decided to spread the celebrating of the day you were born through a whole weekend. Go big, or go home. Right??
We had this epic idea of having TWO parties, one for family and one for friends. This ended up being awesome but pretty darn exhausting to actually execute. So next year, we might just tone it down a notch. But we still had lots of fun celebrating with all the people we love, and I think (I hope!) they all had fun, too.
After all, you only turn one once.
Aaand... we made you a swing!
We used this tutorial, and I'm excited that it came out so well! It's great because it's made out of fabric, so it's comfy. You especially enjoy bringing your blankie along for the ride.
It's also quite spacious, without being dangerous, so we'll get some good use out of it, I'm sure. It's one of those projects that looks way more complicated than it actually is. You love it, and I'm pretty sure you could swing all day if I let you.
I think it's safe to say you had a pretty good first birthday.
This post is also going to be your last monthly update. I'll still record the big stuff you learn in this next year, but I won't be as disciplined with sharing it every month.
The only new development this month has been your new-found love for the word "bagel." It's your favorite. You say it all the time. Over and over again. It's so cute, but we can't figure out how you learned this word because we don't even eat bagels. I think you were probably just babbling and liked how that combination of syllables sounded together. Who knows, though? Maybe you really do just want a bagel.
Anyway... happy first year of life, baby girl!!